Death

This is my last hope

This is my suicide note

There was a time I thought I’d do it but I swear I won’t

But you have no idea how much this weighs upon my soul

Imma feel it every day until I’m six feet below

I feel this knot up in my stomach wanna tear it out

I feel this pain up in my brain I wanna blow it out

Picking up the pieces of myself

Again and again

Why is it that I want to destroy myself and not mend the wounds

Time may heal all but there’s no escape as instant as a tomb

Poisoning my body with all kinds of shit just to escape

Take my daily diet of drugs weed alcohol and fucking vapes

And yeah she’s gone

The love of my life and I can’t believe it

I slowly fucked it up for 3 long years

And sewed the seeds of death but I didn’t know

Fuck my ego

Fuck my coping mechanisms from trauma that she didn’t deal

You can’t undo what’s already been done

Once the trust is broken it’s too late you better run

I just hope I finally learn my lesson for the next one

Or better yet my death comes

We had such a good run